honestly i feel like i really need to be in therapy still probably but since the last two therapists i saw in this gross ass pedophile town were like ideologically supportive of “”“”age differences”“”” in relationships “if they’re mature enough” i kind of am not feelin the idea of seein anyone here; my town has a liberal sexual culture and its position on multiple highway intersections makes it a hub for human trafficking.
because sometimes i just think of sexual abuse and get very sad
and my heart should turn inside out when i think of injustice but i think the happier i am the more effective my activism is and the more i prioritise other things above my activism the happier i am
i can channel my negative emotions over having been passed around the country as the worlds cheapest prostitute into activism but i feel like im mostly just yelling lately
and theres not really any healing power in yelling impotently
i dont even know if its my own experiences im upset about right now it probably isnt really
i dont know if i need a therapist so much as
someone to talk to
which y may well become in time.